brattie'sbloggie

2010-07-11T12:16:00.000-07:00

hello, blog.

its been awhile.

sorry if you wont be seeing me here, blame tumblr.

This is forever

2010-02-02T09:24:00.000-08:00

Who are your best of friends?

Those who know your deepest, darkest secrets, and have found your major flaws,
but still love you anyway.

*hearts*

so far, only a few have the honours of being on my list :)

iloveyoupeople.

accepting the truth

2009-12-31T12:06:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, I wonder.

Do I look like someone who yearns for love. Wanting attention. Everytime I try to catch your eyes but you turn away. You barely look at me, and I crack my head everyday to try to guess why.

But then, I just want us to be friends. Close friends that can talk,laugh,joke at almost anything,anywhere and anytime.

I dont love you.I like you.

My heart is still wandering about. Looking for the right one.I dont want anyone to end up with a broken heart after a confession.It takes millions of guts for someone to confess and it aint easy at all.

Dont worry.Im not going to do that.Im not stupid, and I never had the courage to do so.

I want you,as a friend :D

Erasing,Forgetting,Remembering

2009-12-30T02:27:00.000-08:00

Its December 30th :)
Christmas just flew by like it never happened.Christmas eve,like last year,was awesome.

Korean Inspired Spectacles :)

It'll be 2010 in just two days.And to tell you the truth, I never believed in 2012.
My heart chose not to believe in it,and hints that I want to die an old lady,lying in her bed.The earth will never be the same again,and there might even have a snowfall someday in Malaysia.Who would have guessed?

LET IT SNOW BABY!

A brand new year is simply
one step towards aging,and another step towards your dreams(if you have one).

My new year resolution? :)
I'll think about it.
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A PEEK INTO MOON'S BLOGSHOP :)
Located at 'The Strand', Kota Damansara.
COMING SOON

www.moons-homeandgifts.blogspot.com
Selling flowers!gifts!pewters!teddies!Home Decos!
Do Drop by :)

2009-11-17T02:47:00.000-08:00

Park or no park? :D Re-consider.

AND IM ON THE VERGE OF GOING CRAZY BECAUSE OF MY FAR-KING YOUTUBE CONNECTION.
I wanna watch my ‘Your Beautiful’ and ‘IRIS’ so badly ):

AHHH. JANG GEUN SUK. *FLIES TO THE SKY*

I heard her telling me those dreadful stories again,

And It struck me when i realised that 'Hey, Im not jealous anymore.'

thats a good sign :D

getting tired waiting for you

2009-11-03T09:12:00.000-08:00

2PM

BIGGEST ANTICIPATION FOR COMEBACK OF THE YEAR.

Jaebum, I'll never get tired waiting for you.

2PM, Im still waiting for you

<3

Fulfilling

2009-10-30T23:10:00.000-07:00

Tioman Island
3 days and 2 nights of fun

Day One

Awesome ride in the bus down to Mersing.
Wandering around the town at 4AM in the morning. Ferry only arrives at 6.30.
Finally managed to find a mamak to settle down for the starving people.
Got thrown into the pool. and stories of revealing undergarments.
Loads of walking,walking and more walking.
Had lunch that wasn’t worth the money.
Jeep down the lane, passing through the entire village.
Had to endure itches and rashes, but fun nevertheless.
Even after dinner, I was still walking.
Humming songs, and casual conversations with girls are always fun.
Duty free shops, beers, alcohols, cigarrettes. You name it, they have it.
Midnight. Off to the beach nearby. Kicked off with bottles of corona's and tiger beers.
Artworks in the sand are always fasinating.
Pictures Pictures Pictures.
Lovely stars, more than what i expected.

Day Two

Snorkelling :)
Hanged around the jetty waiting for Mr.fisherman to take us off.
Had fun getting onto boats.
The sight of the surrounding sea = breathtaking
The blue, deep ocean. One can never see the end of it.
The way the water splashes up, and how the waves bring us along.
The air, the weather, the water, the nature.
Four different destinations.
Learning how to breathe through my mouth. Having fits with the lifejackets.
Screaming and whinings.
The view of fishes underwater, with beautiful corels and sea creatures - Sensational.
In the middle of the sea, FISHING. First experience of getting sea sick. Had the urge to throw up.
Caught ten fishes. I wansnt even amused. Too caught up by my own body condition.
Didnt really snorkelled much when we reached monkey bay.
Enjoyed the pretty sceneries though.
Last stop.
Full of laughter, smiles and fun.
Had a hard time persuading Rachel to join us.
Never had the chance to laugh so wholeheartedly until then.
Reached Berjaya Hotel.
Another round of swimming. WITHOUT having to taste the awfully salty sea water.
One of the most memorable day in my life :)
At night, it was all about pictures,entertainment, and talkings.
Plus, the ever famous Tom Yam Maggie Cup to end the day.

Day Three

Two of them went back earlier.
It was raining. The sky was sad to send us off.
Had delicious Roti Telur at our favourite mamak stall.
Lagged around the Jetty area.
Tiring trip back to KL. Not too pleasing bus trip.
All ends well.

aitakute

2009-10-08T10:13:00.000-07:00

i think im very in trouble :(

that stupid, same yearning again i had experienced 7/8 months ago.

damn his everything. Im scared it'll end just like how it did the last time.

i understand 'i want to see you now'
i understand 'every minute thinking of you'
i understand 'waiting for msgs endlessly'

every little thing related to you.
i have to know.

2009-10-01T07:33:00.000-07:00

theres so many haters in this world.

i dont deny that. I am a hater myself.And I'll let them hate me for whatever reason it might be.
And I'll hate them for whatever reason I want.

let them hate.you'll feel better.

:)

I aim for perfection.

so much pain

2009-09-08T10:43:00.000-07:00

Dear Park Jae Bum,

We want you back . I have faith in you.

Dear Kim Hyun Joong,

You'll be cured for sure. :D

Dear Kim Jun Su,

I miss you so much my heart's breaking.

Dear Kim Kyu Jong,

Please remember me. *hugs*

Dear college life :

I hate you. Everything's so stressed up. Projects undone.Assignments breaking me apart. And when I need someone beside me to talk my heart out, no one was there. I want to be myself again. I want to learn to laugh earnestly again. I want the ones that I love so much to be with me every single day. I dont want to be on the verge of tears every single night trying to control all the damn emotions inside me, reminding myself that I will not cry because I dont have to.

The things people do.
The words people say.
The way people speak.
They dont realise how much they hurt me.
I've turned aggressive.
I've become demanding.
I dont used to order or direct. Im not even used to it.
I need someone that I can rely on.

I want someone that I can trust in.
Like how I've put so much into the dearest that would always be the ones when I need them.

The two greatest beings that i've ever come across.

WE EVEN DO SIMILIAR EXPRESSIONS. :D

Same thoughts, same thinking.
WE'VE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR 12 YEARS :D

I SAYANG YOU.

if you cant cry, dont force yourself to.

2009-09-04T09:55:00.000-07:00

SS501'S FANMEETING was both awesome yet somewhat dissapointing at the same time.
We were all so hyped up and carried so much of hopes and anticipations with us days before the event and even when we were on our way..
Everyone was supposed to go back having sweet dreams .

For the fans out there that didnt manage to get what you've been waiting for so long, I feel you. I really, really do.
The anger, the dissapointment, the tears. Whichever it may be, Im sure nothing could be worst than this.Having being able to see them right in front of your eyes, but then the doors were shut all of a sudden. And its just like everything in your mind blacks out.

Everything stop functioning at that very moment.

To those that experienced heartbreaks through this few nights, and to those that cried their hearts out for all the effort you've been through.All the squeezing, pushing and waiting for endless years for the very moment and ONLY chance to get their autographs, pass them your gifts and your heart.Theres always a next time :)Be it a concert or whatsoever.

The damn money suckers can go home and think twice and those guards and securities that dont have brains and act like they are know-it-alls.And to that CERTAIN security guard, that stood blocking the door and telling the fans to line up and stop pushing. WELL. ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS? LOL. Like seriously. They just stood there and use their smelly stinking mouth to TALK and TALK, as if the fans will listen. Why cant you use some actions? Be smart enough to lead the fans into a line and force them into a line if they cant instead of using the damn loudspeaker to yell.

FOR GOD'S SAKE.

Dont cry if you cant and cry if you cant surpress it :) Its not the end of the world. THERES THE CONCERT :)

To my ever loved friends that didnt get their signatures. Dont hate me for not offering the signatures to you. I seriously cant imagine what would I do if i gave away Kyu's signature.And all I could think of at that moment was 'Time to be selfish' . Sorry babes.

To Szen, your a tough tough one :) HyunJoong loves you la k :) and HELLO. The she-who-would-not-be-named is not EVERYTHING okay? The boys are.

P.S This will not be the happy post :) I'll blog about KYU and what happened to me when i want to :)

sweet notes and flowers

2009-08-23T04:30:00.000-07:00

I laughed too much yesterday ;D

That means my wishes are coming true one by one! WEE.

2009-08-19T07:13:00.000-07:00

with my birthday less than a week to go,
i wonder whats the little things in life that make me laugh my heart out ocassionally.

and for my 18th birthday, i wish I have more insane laughs to go through :)

p.s thats only the ONE wish out of the thousands more i've made.

beauty with brains?

2009-07-22T06:38:00.000-07:00

college.BOO.

Results aint that bad,but not thoroughly satisfied since I personally think that form 5 add math is much more challenging yet i STILL got a B for mathematics? Dont show me your im-so-shocked face yah. :D

Im cool with our maths,business communication,moral,and english class. WHAT THE HELL IS WITH THE ACCOUNTING CLASS?

18 PEOPLE ONLY HAHAHA. SO FARKING FUNNY MAN. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SLEEP IN CLASS NEXT TIME? ): ): ):

Jessica and Megan left Foundation In Arts officially.Im going to bloddy miss them.The two pretties and the ones that are seriously EIGHTEEN and act like one.We'll definately still meet up sometime and laugh at cats somemore.lol.Im not sure who left us after semester one,but good luck to our future and whichever way you choose,It better be a good one :D

Who knows?I might be leaving by Semester Three as well.
Please let me have a fun fun semester.*puppy eyes*

AND BE MORE SPONTANEOUS PEOPLEEEE. Oh my kawan .
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Okay.So I have a sketch to act on friday and Im going to be an evil witch. Me likey! haha.Am Anticipating for Saturday as well.Please come.

Before I end this post,I know some complains about too much words and too little pictures. FINE FINE. :D

Genting! I WANNA GO ON ALL THE RIDES AGAINN!! ): and def snow world,im coming.

thats all for now :D
JA NE~

random thoughts

2009-07-09T09:35:00.000-07:00

my never-to-be-forgotten loves :)

i remember theres this guy that I met on my last day of work that wasnt a customer,he wasnt a staff anywhere,just a random passerby.
unexpected,and it happened all so fast.
through a friend's friend,I got to know his name,and he knew mine.
talking was never this fun,and feeling flirtious is just right at that moment.
we roamed around,getting to know someone was never this enjoyable either.

just like how it came,it went.

was definately the best day of work there :)

never thought of seeing him again even after all the thoughtless messages sent to each other.On the day when I was at Seafield,collecting back a few certificates and documents,I walked pass a black toyota,and heard my name.

that was the last time i saw him.

2009-07-05T23:27:00.000-07:00

genie,genie,please help my fringe to grow faster ):
i'll give you a diamond if you do so.

today is Seafield's carnival! Yesterday was SU's but didnt managed to go.Friday,was about karaoke sessions,which I havent been doing since college started,and no one wants to go.All the karaoke party people were busy with their own schedules and everything.Life is dull without karaoke.hah!Saturday,was about Lick Hung's sports day and my sister took part in a modern dancing society and gawd,their costumes are making me go dizzy.Sunday,owns :D

Meeting up with Angeline,Vanissa,Yiwon,thats back from Melbourne is the best damn thing ever.and ohmygod,Lynn.

The girl that thought she is actually in Egypt or maybe she yearns to be there tooo much.And brought a scarf to wrap herself up even when we were all sticky and sweaty.That girl is impossible.

Im having my two weeks break now.What to do? I need parties,movies,sleepovers,or any sorts of junkies so i woudnt just stick to the labtop and flail over Kim Junsu.Speaking of which,OMG,THEY OWN TOKYO DOME WITH THE RED SEA OF TWO DAYS STRAIGHT.PWN SO MUCH WITH THEIR MUSIC.

TOKYO DOME DAY ONE :D

Xiahtic - Junsu ft Yoochun

I dont really give a damn if they own hot bodies or have chocolate abs,seriously.Im in love with their music.The way they harmonize in every single song gives me the chills and accapella groups are so rare these days.They sing lives better than records.Period.

what goes around,comes around

2009-07-03T10:56:00.000-07:00

finals are over.

LIKE HELL SERIOUS I AM :D i miss reading novels and re-reading every single one of them that i own.Oh,the pleasure.I miss the desperate checking for updates of my email sent by the online-boutiques.I miss spending hours straight on youtube and ONLY youtube to laugh at all the little things that Junsu do(ohmygod,you have no idea how he can just brighthen my day from one silly video).That boy is simply amazing i tell you.I miss waking up at eleven in the morning and skipping breakfast cause its all been eaten up.I miss fangirling with all my super crazy darlings that make me go wild everytime we talk.I miss hanging out with close friends from Seafield and I JUST DID TODAY :D

Cant wait for the Hari kantin just because i can get to see EVERYBODY again.Well,not everybody.But yeah the important ones.Who cares about the games and food and junk.ahhh.Okay,i sound meaann.
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Its funny how time passes sooo quickly and its the end of Semester One already.It wasnt supreme,and it wasnt that bad either.*shoots a so-so look to everyone* I demand more from Semester Two though.Makes me doubt FIA and wanting to go into Ausmath.gah.There better be a prom night or something or else i'll be so damned.hah.

One of the best thing that happened.
THE UNOFFICIAL KOREAN CLUB (okay,maybe its official) , supported by the IYF society.
and yeah.KOREANS. THE DREAM WEH. TO BE FRIENDS WITH KOREANS AND TALK TO THEM IN KOREAN :D :D :D

but somehow,they know english.so whatheheck,speaking in english is soo much easier :) Recently went to a trip with them.eek.The mushiness of singing in the van-sort-of-car ,experiencing the BUMPIEST car ride ever.Oh Mr Pastor,how skilled you are at driving and do you even have a lisense for this? LOL. Mr Pastor is always on the go about bible stories as his a korean,his english is a little *gulps*. And Thomas,the ever faithful MR GUITAR MAN.Always seen with his blue devilish guitar and strumming along,singing wayyy out of tune.

and the CHOS,never to forget. The ever so loving seung-saeng-nims that are both worlds apart in person.Think, THE TIGER AND THE RABBIT.HAHAH.

Claiming to be the 'tiger' teacher and seriously,his sooo scary ): He has a damn fetish of being a teacher i tell you.Grabbing onto his long pointed black pointer and tapping it on the board.GAH.*shivers*And the other,always giving the 'awwww,im soo cute with my super sharp nose' look to everyone,making everyone(maybe only me) falling all over him.

Lets play the guessing game. Which is which? :D

SO OBVIOUS CAN.YOU DONT KNOW I KILL YOU.AND I MEAN IT.
alright.I know you cant see the faces of the GREEN and BLUE :D TOO BAD. HAHA.

AND
AND
AND

Lee Sang Gil(the only guy in the picture) wins the award for the cutest personality ever.Known to be the 'SYOK SENDIRI KING' as his forever taking pictures with his phone snapping away *flashes* .His a complete fail at singing bigbang's songs and Because Im Stupid but geeee,how can anybody not love this guy. :) His english still need some buckering up.Right?

Their soo much love <3 I'll miss them bad when they head back to Korea next year.

also,
BIG KISSES TO MY VERY MISSED TAN MEI YEN. We must so see each other and talk :) I sooo want you back in subang ):
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Warning to the girl that gets on my nerves so much.i know you hate me and i hate you so fuck off lah bitch. :) Im trying to be nice but you want to play backfiring isit? FINE. I am so impossibly good at that.

anticipation

2009-07-01T02:52:00.000-07:00

ITS ALMOST COMING TO AN END :D

THE TORTURE OF STAYING AT HOME TO STUDY. HAHA.

Just tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.

does anyone agree that younha's version of gee is the absolute cover? ;)

CRINGING MADNESS

2009-06-27T11:17:00.000-07:00

overdosage of love messages (especially the ones that are directly translated from chinese and omfg,pls lah,dont be so ah-niang can?)

MAKES ME CRINGE. SHIT.

*off to cringe somemore*

*dies*

one whole week of finals and im not done with accounts ): Just thinking of that subject gets me sick all over,imagine being an accountant?DIE LAH LIKE THAT.My butt will ache and burn for sitting uncountable hours to count,count,and count.
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'Reach for the stars' ,my parents once wrote in a letter sent to me while I was in university...
Xandra ooi inspires me ;)

OOOHH.I have my hair tied up like those korean girls(think SO HEE) because of my fringe.Its always the fringe problem cause I have a wide forehead.Wanna know how wide it is? er.Its... this wide.go figure.Im going cut my hair somemore!Its getting shorter,shit.no no no.Better not get addicted to it.

toodles babes :)
p.s i know i have too much to update.HOW?EO-TO-KAE?omfg.how do you spell it.hah.
p.s.s GO SEAFIELD'S HARI KELUARGA YAH. I'LL SEE YOU THERE :D

R.I.P Micheal Jackson,the Legend. aww,and his only 50.shucks.

*hurries off mumbling incoherently*

LOVESICK,PERHAPS?

2009-06-21T11:18:00.000-07:00

i dont want to see him

i want to see him

i dont want to see him

i want to see him

i dont want to see him

SHIT

i still want to see him.

jaejoong's clone?

2009-06-07T09:55:00.000-07:00

just a sneak preview.

notice something?*winks*

WILL HAVE A BIG MAJOR UPDATE AFTER MY ACCOUNTS TEST. :D :D :D

Please look forward to it.
and leave a tag or something :)

What's about L.I.F.E

2009-05-24T10:10:00.000-07:00

I HATE EMOTIONAL POSTS WITH BROKEN STRINGS OF VOCABULARY.

AWW COME ON.HOW HARD CAN LIFE BE?YOUR STILL LIVING IT AFTER ALL THE SHITTY CRAP YOU SPIT OUT/CRY OUT.

HAH.

FULL STOP.

i might be doing them myself(emotional posts chokes*).

*swallows myself up*
*runs off to lala land and sings twinkle twinkle little star*

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some might not know,but i dont cry easily.If you manage to break me,your a wonder ;)

p.s I dont even cry over dead pets/victims of natural disasters/orphans/disableds.BUT.that doesnt mean i have a rock stoned heart.I just dont cry easily.I have my own ways of expressing them.

ALSO

to miss kong.the bff #2
GOOD LUCK IN YOUR DRIVING TEST YOU BITCH AND I KNOW YOU'LL PASS TOMORROW.
DONT SAY I DIDNT PRAY FOR YOU :D

much love,<3
ME.

and MY CRAZY TPY.
YOU PASS ALSO LAH YOU.LOL
FOR SURE.

2009-05-23T09:24:00.000-07:00

I was initially going to post up a post that wasnt supposed to be well,a post.

But i forgive and I'll try to forget.

:)

2009-05-11T05:50:00.000-07:00

Something is definately wrong with me

I DONT LIKE 2NE1'S FIRE AND LOLLIPOP.

shoot me.

p.s MR HS puts a smile on my face everyday just by thinking of him ;)

2009-04-22T01:55:00.000-07:00

picture credit to MissNineteen

Anyone interested in a YOU top please email Wan Fen at,
lilbratrawk@hotmail.com.

Item is not worn before except for trying purposes.
Im trying to sell it off because the cutting doesnt suit me.

Price = email me :)
Negotiable.

2009-04-18T03:43:00.001-07:00

[EDIT]

I've always doubt myself being at the right place at the right time.

Today made me realised that friends come and go;whats yours is yours;what isnt,isnt.They have their own lifes,and you have yours.Some still being a part of you and always will be,others moving on.Maybe I like how it all turned out,maybe I dont.But its improving.

' Sometimes we're on a collision course, and we just don't know it. Whether it's by accident or by design, there's not a thing we can do about it '
-Benjamin Button

'we're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?'

Im halfway there :) Somehow,I sensed that I can make it.Just a little effort and time and thats all it takes.

Im almost there.

god knows how many pictures i've took with this babe ;D

stolen from tien chin's blog ;)

2009-04-14T05:37:00.000-07:00

PEARLY SAYS XIAH(JUNSU) IS PRAWN.LOL LOL LOL.
Those that knows chinese would probrably know that XIAH has the same pronouciation as XIA which equals to
PRAWN.

and oh! LIKE DUH DAVID COOK IS BETTER THAN ARCHULETA.hahah.DO NOT DENY.
Archuleta's like some baby and i know his cute,and he just came to Malaysia a few days ago.But I cant stand american boys thats cute and WHITE.haha.

JUNSU ISNT THE SAME.HIS AN ASIAN.LOL.

Business and Management class gets on my guts so much.Particularly because of the students that are attending it.I WANNA CHANGE MY CLASS.Or rather CHANGE MY CLASSMATES.We have this groups in class,and we work together,sit together and the thing is, we(my group) named ourselves AFTERSCHOOL.Mrs/Miss Ruba uses her high pitched voice and calls ' AFTERSCHOOL?! ' (cringes)

Korean's AFTERSCHOOL added a new member and shes quite damn pretty.So much for the PCD concept eh?Their new song,DIVA is not my liking at all.I demand the comeback of AHH!!! AHHHHHHHH! *gets bricked*

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Accounts is deadly-boring.
Situation ONE
someone's phone rang for a second in the class.He most prob forgot to switch it to silent mode.
Teacher : please have some discipline yeah.
Me : (gets zha-dou like nobody's business)

Situation TWO
She caught someone chewing a gum in the mouth(which is ACCEPTABLE in college)
Teacher : Why are you chewing?hmm?hmm? Why?
Me :(looks at her and gets zha-dou like nobody's business for the second time)

Situation THREE
A boy was talking to a friend for a tad moment
Teacher :Pay attention yeah...hmmm.. Playful ahh..hmm..
Me : (shivers)

Situation FOUR
Teacher :(she was looking towards MY direction) look up.look up (referring to a person's head looking up)
Me :(I was all the while staring into space at the white board so I continued staring)
Whole Class : (turns head and look)
Me :HMM? (VERY INNOCENT AND CLUELESS OF WHATS HAPPENING CAUSE IT WASNT ME SO DONT LOOK AT ME)

ZHA-DOU-ED for the fourth time today.

random- Quotes lynn : We went for Marley!
me : and we almost slept!

shit.my face is WIDE and FAT

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I've joined the Japanese class in Sunway along with others and they were MAJOR LOL-ING sessions.Havent laughed for quite awhile,so hardly.And I got a little tipsy when I was attending class today,and started laughing at the tiniest things ever.My friends thought I was mad.LOL.They dont know me well enough yet. *winks*

OH! AND CUTE KOREANS ARE THE CURRENT REASON WHY I ANTICIPATE FOR COLLEGE EVERYDAY.HAHAHA.
hopefully alls well with the korean club and korean lesson. PLEASE LET IT BE A SUCCESS.GAHHH! :D

PLEASE JOIN ALRIGHT? IF YOUR INTERESTED IN KOREAN LANGUAGE LESSONS PLEASE LET ME KNOW(for sunway students)

Kamsamida!
p.s Szen,you'll meet that guy again on your second test. I sense it :)

the pretty thats working at Miss S now!

2009-03-25T07:55:00.000-07:00

first task : try to reactivate my blog and make it live again! RAWWWWRRR.
second task : get assignments done(YES SO FAST KAN?ITS JUST TWO DAYS)
third task :youtube youtube youtube! (and its all szen's fault)
fourth task : get my textbooks and files/folders blah!
fifth task :reconfirm my clubs and societies.

English lesson's so fun! Miss Aby was kind of like a surprise to us cause we were expecting an indian women to walk in.hah!First lesson,so we played GUESS THE MOVIE.gah.And I had to guess 'Dead Poet Society' oh man.I dont even know this movie existed.but our group won somehow.Grabbed half a mark for guessing it correctly BUT exceeded the time limit.I found out quite a majority of them chinese are srsly,CHINESE.Once they open their mouth to talk,i can sense that their not very comfortable with the language and hence,I changed to manderin and VOILA!

guess what one of them told me?
'OHH!you know how to speak chinese?aiyyyah,should have told me earlier mahhh'
then he starts speaking in chinese.

LOL

ah sigh.and finally,the fourth day in college.I dont feel lost anymore :) loved the sense of it as it practicaly means I BELONG AND IS A PART OF THE COLLEGE :)

every class,different bunch of students.heck.
not bad eh.syok.

and to those that still dont know,or are interested to know.Im not studying anything that has to do with science.Its just not my thing.

TARZAN MAGAZINE.
FUCK LOOK AT JAEJOONG AND JUNSU. DOUBLE WOOTS FOR THE JAESU! *goes off fangirling* If you want the other member's photos,come get them from me.

BONUS!! XIAHTIC

2009-03-21T21:15:00.000-07:00

kudos to me cause im now a college student :)

Orientation day wasnt that bad.Turned out quite good and the ice-breaking session was fairly fun.New faces and got to meet up with the old ones which i've missed for so long.Bumped into a few unexpected ones like Mysarah and Azeem . I cant believe that we'r in the same course and never to forget,Xiao Min and Pearly ,the pretties.I dont have the chance to get pictures with them yet,and cant wait for classes to start on tuesday where I get to know my classmates.And no,no sizzingly hot men in my course but def saw some roaming around the college.

I think i'll lose my way though.I cant even find wheres my classroom at.Sorry to say but lone rangers coudnt have possibly survive living in college.Thats cause I just wont do without friends.Coudnt bring myself to laugh and talk as much as I do normally.Guess I still miss them highschool friends heaps and FIVE out of the SIX of them are actually in Sunway too :)

*beams*

frankly,i dont miss going back to work at pyramid.Although the friends there are worth turning back for.But naww.Life as a salesgirl is just so meaningless and you know, lifeless.

conclusion : Sales promoting is so not my thing.

anyway, I have so many movies to catch up on.
-The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
-Valkyrie(checked!)
-Slumdog Millionaire
-Seven pounds
-Love Matters
-The Reader
-Marley and Me
-The International

ONLY ONE CHECKED!HOW CAN D: D: D:
if you want to watch any of the above with me(please do), then leave a tag okay.
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I FORGOT TO FANGIRL TODAY.

AMAZING PERFORMANCE AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS HARMONIZING AND MUSIC TO THE EARS IF YOU HAVENT HEAR THIS LIVE!
the orchestra band at the back helps it all!

Kotoba Ni Dekinai (words cant describe)

Lions Heart(originally by SMAP)

Bolero

and in case you havent heard Super Juniors's Sorry Sorry. GO NOW! I only find Eunhyuk attractive though as the other's voices turns me off and they just dont dance appealingly.

HEARTQUAKE is especially good and of course lah! Cause yoochun and yunho's behind the rapping and im DBSK!FIED!.

Oh.Xiao Min is also a DBSK fan! YAY US!we are so going to join the Korean club.haha!

p.s Auto's are so much easier than Manual's!

2009-03-18T02:54:00.000-07:00

okay,so here goes the story.

THIS FUCKING IGNORANT NO-LIFE ARROGANT AND BITCHY WOMEN GOT ON MY NERVES SO DAMN MUCH THAT I HAD TO BLOG ABOUT THIS.

Went to school to get her to sign some documents.and heres what happened

me: Pn X.....I...
*cuts off when she just walked away after nodding her head at me*
Pn X then turned back halfway to tell me that if its about certificates,then just go to the office and they'll know what to do.
me:em,no.I need you to sign the documents for me.
Pn X: *stares rudely* oh,your report card.give me your report card.
me: *stares like some dumbshit cause i didnt think she needed the report card*
Pn X then walks off like nobody's buisness.

head back to the office with lynn and waited,waited and waited.
I even waited for her to finish up her work but still she didnt acknowledge us.
WE WERE RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER AND SHE DONT GIVE A DAMN.FUCK IT LAH.
after trying to get her attention for like endless times, Cik Tan did something nice by trying to help me get her to sign the documents and
OMG.
THE STAFFS THERE ARE BLOODY USELESS AND ITS LIKE THEIR SCARED TO WITS TOWARDS PN X.

know what did i get for an answer? I heard her shouting across the other side of the office saying
' report card! I dont want the forecast results!'
* zha-ed for the second time* then Cik Tan explained that she needed the report card cause she wanted to know who am I.

*silence*
me: oh okay,then..when will she be in school?
staff: friday.friday.
me : *calls mum and mum had to travel all the way back to get my report card*
but in the end mum cant find it and we had to go home.

SPENT A FREAKING HOUR THERE WAITING FOR THAT SO-SHE-THINK-SHES-ALL-THAT WOMEN.
waste of time and energy.
have to thank lynn for accompanying me ;)

HELLO.I WAS ONCE A STUDENT AND I DESERVE SOME RESPECT ALSO.YOU THINK YOUR A QUEEN?ITS THE SCHOOL HOLIDAYS SO YOU VERY BUSY MEH?SO SO SO BUSY MEH?ONE MINUTE ALSO TAKDE?
well,if you dont have even a minute,you could just say your busy and kindly ask me to wait awhile or something.

DONT ACT LIKE IM A NOBODY AND JUST WALK OFF.
I have to talk to the staff,then get the staff to talk to her. yet,even the staffs are scared of her it seems.

seriously,please respect your students.

Im done bitching about it.I just had to let the world know about this.But Im not revealing names. :)

Pn X, who do you think you are? Really.

I just realised something today.
I dont miss school.I dont miss the teachers(except one or two).I dont miss anything of it.
Friends of course,i still adore them to bits.

nah,school's over and i dont want to go back. :)

2009-03-16T00:16:00.000-07:00

dont try to ask me what did I get for SPM.
and pleasee.i mean,really,please dont try to comfort me by saying that the results i got was good enough to get into college.

sigh.I dont want just that.I want more.
all the joy,relief,excitement from scoring well.I want those.
I want to have the chance to phone back home and said that I've got good results and make everyone proud in the family.

mum said she knew I could get more than this.It isnt right.
and waay below what I expected.I DID put in effort,maybe not enough,but it coudnt be that bad ):

thank you much much to those that understood and was concerned at that time. I'll get on with life and theres no turning back.Letting the tuition teachers is like you've made a sin or something.feeling utterly down at the moment.

I think I dissapointed myself.

on the happier note: I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST! and almost failed my slope cause I felt the car sliding down but managed to push the accelerator and off i went ;D

was shaking like nobody's buisness at JPJ. (due to extreme nervousness and rapid heartbeats.you get it)

GOT TO MOVE ON WITH LIFE AND FORGET SPM!AHHHHH!
-
also,am currently venturing into online shopping which many of you,i assume, has not tried yet.

why not give it a shot? but careful,you'll get addicted and BAM! you'll notice your money's gone.haha.

get started with www.ashopaholicsden.blogspot.com
its a review site and it leads you to blogs that are into this e-shopping thing.

one click away ;)

and just some pictures to brighten up this dull post.

the dearest people I've ever met and will never forget ;)

2009-02-25T06:19:00.000-08:00

he'll be a part of me.

DBSK'S 3rd MIROTIC Tour in Korea ended today. They have to come to Malaysia goddamnit.
SNEAK PEEK

YUNHO'S SOLO-Checkmate

JUNSU'S SOLO- XIAHTIC(feat SHINEE's Key)
(fuck,damnit)only one fancam of it.

*NOSEBLEED*

born to sing

YOOCHUN'S SOLO-Love,bye,love.
piano much?such a sweetheart with the pink hat.

JAEJOONG'S SOLO-Geogeotmani Sesang
never ending with his breathtaking vocals.

No photos.I tried finding. ):
HIS VOCALS ARE AMAZING.

CHANGMIN'S SOLO-Upon this rock
its english! hah.check out his high notes.

THEY SANG INSA LIVE.SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL.
and guess who's with guns? :D

I SO KNOW THAT MALAYSIA WILL BE BANNING THE GUNS PART( if their ever coming to malaysia,that is)
its just toy guns,no harm ):

credits to MEI KUAN for helping me find this picture :P

ALSO LOOK OUT FOR : BALLOONS (BOSSANOVA VERSION),HAHAHA,LOVE IN THE ICE(korean version).

CHANGMIN also sang korea's famous lullaby.Many of you will find it familiar :)
EUNHASU

sorry if it hurt your ears due to the explosive fans screaming.
this was the part where Junsu was flying on a broomstick,Yoochun was with wings,Jaejoong with a bicycle in the air,and Yunho with a pole,while Changmin was singing.

MUST COME MALAYSIA LOR

2009-02-16T08:07:00.000-08:00

should i say he wasnt meant for me.
or
I wasnt meant for him.

either way,
i'll survive :)

we'r not destined.

second note, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY.
his one message made my whole day :)

2009-02-09T21:04:00.000-08:00

the ever loving,bubbly little SOW YIWON :)

she left for melbourne to further her studies,leaving us behind and bidding farewells are never as easy as it looks like.Im sure she'll do well there since shes more than independant,rich and def smart :D

I coudnt see her off in the airport but hopefully you'll like the t-shirt we gave you sweetheart.
Managed to catch up with her two days before she took off and

OH MY GOD,I'LL MISS YOU. and i know she'll miss me too.haha.Despite everything that we went through.Known her since form one by attending the same tuition and we barely made it during form four where things start to go wrong.Whatever,cause now we've mend it and everythings fine as dandy now.

to the biggest S.H.E fangirl,

GROUP HUG!!

HAVE A GREAT TIME THERE AND REMEMBER TO GO ONLINE AS OFTEN AS YOU CAN.

loads and loads of loves.

i think im going to cry.
everyone's leaving.

2009-02-02T08:17:00.000-08:00

only a few inches away and I coudnt breathe.the smell lingers.hands so delicate yet holds a strong grasp.

hearing laughters and talks you share with them,

can i ever get through this?

2009-01-25T07:11:00.000-08:00

i'll probrably be going on and on with this.
KIM KYU JONG IS THE PRINCE CHARMING LIKE OHMYGOD NO KIDDING.

his eyes can kill.His a member of SS501.Kim Hyun Joong,the leader is a lead in the series of 'Boys over flowers' and how sexily low can his voice get?THESE TWO HOT MALES ARE SO IRRISISTABLE :D

Heo young saeng has such a pretty voice not to forget.

Their vocals are great in FIND

TOO CUTE: In ' a song calling for you'

way macho : You Are Man

way waaaayyy macho: Deja Vu

2009-01-25T07:00:00.000-08:00

January 25th.

another friend's birthday.
FELICITY GAN :D

Happy 18th Birthday Sweetiepie!
so happy that you had fun during the National Service cause your damn lucky.haha.
Remember to come visit me before you go back alright?Have to see how skinny you've become :D

hope you have hell lots of fun and come back with your RM450.heh.

you didnt forget my birthday,so how can I?

let me guess.your having a toothache now because you've had such a sweet birthday and fulfilling reunion dinner?

oh.and
GONG XI FA CAI.your rich so wheres the angpao? :P

buckets of love.
muah!
lilbrat

SO DEEP,IT HURTS

2009-01-22T07:57:00.000-08:00

im now unwanted,if thats the right word to say.

its been two days Im all dreamy and I dare say I DAYDREAM ALOT.Things thats not possible to happen,happens when i daydream.I dont usually get what i want in my dreams when Im sleeping.so why not try daydreaming instead?haha.

I checked up his friendster/facebook and it turned me off to no end.How can someone be so entirely different in photos?
Turning up in contacts was definately a right choice to have me all over him and now,i dont even know myself.

DAMN YOU.

i think im struck by love.
and you dont even call.

DAMN YOU,REALLY.

Irresponsible little piece of shit.
your making me cry again.

damn.
Now i think i can give everything for you.

TWO DAYS

2009-01-21T23:25:00.000-08:00

Just two days,and i barely made it through.

I havent felt like this since,three years or two years ago?
Its also my first.

maybe i'll quit and find something else.
No more worrying.
No more shying away.
No more rapid heartbeats.
No more self critism.
and no more crying.

yay me.

2009-01-18T01:42:00.001-08:00

SHIT LOR I TELL YOU.

[EDITED,JUST IN CASE]

2009-01-17T08:48:00.000-08:00

Introducing Kim Kyu Jong

im hired.
and im working with two men that I dont really like cause they speak canto.hah.Not so say that I hate it but I just dont like it when guys speak canto cause they sound uneducated and useless.Their english was so-so but I felt so out of place talking to them in chinese and english when their talking to me in canto.

I CAN SPEAK AND LISTEN OKAY?But,i just cant get the hang of it.hah.

and yeah,I'll be careful.Mum reminds me everytime and Im NOT shallow.Which in fact,I just dont take critics and I dont know why.
Im afraid of taking buses alone,so hopefully Angeline will be around and we'll ride it together to work everyday ;D
-
Im helping out mum with house chores and not lacking around at home when everyone's at college.Im not that useless alright.Cut out the fact that I still wake up around eleven everyday without fail.heh.

Im more than happy to see friends going through a whole new chapter in college and some,at work.Theres nights before I go to sleep and I clutch the handphone praying that a message comes through and says that they miss me,but it never did happen.It made me so insecure and it was actually the very first when I was so alone.Its been two weeks or so since college started and Im over it :)

I can take this.All of it.
I'll just swallow the whole chump of it and let it go.

Back to my happy self again.Never more overwhelmed.

2009-01-17T08:15:00.000-08:00

TAGGED BY VANISSA
( i rarely do tags but I'll give this a try)

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smoke?
- yeah.Not into the bad boy type :)

2. How about drinking?
- I dont mind drinking.

3. Do you like someone you can't have?
- always :D

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
- if thats who i like,then sure :)

5. What's your favourite sport?
- Running.I like it when the winds hits on you while your running and i'll feel free :)

6. Its Saturday night, and you're home alone... what do you do?
- internet!

7. Do you like roller coasters?
- scary but fun

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
- after you've had all the fun being single :)

9. If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?
- LIKE DUH KIM JUNSU :D

and KYUJONG<3

10. What are you doing this weekend?
- dates/lunch

11. What is your favourite restaurant?
- dont have one.

12. Have you ever hugged someone?
- uh huh

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
- D:

14. Do you like anyone right now?
- KIM JUNSU.

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
- eyes.

16. Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains?
- beach.Sunsets!

17. What kind of phone do you have?
- Nokia.

18. Computer or Laptop?
- Labtop

19. Jeans or Sweats?
- Jeans!

20. Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?
- 2007?2008 wasnt a very good year.and of course,2009 will be the best :D

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
- eighteen

22. What should you be doing right now?
- Changing to my pj's

23. What is your favourite TV show?
- English series?One Tree Hill,Grey's anatomy.

24. What's been your last purchase?
- a white hairband.

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?
- naww.

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
- not on my butt.never.

27. What do you do when you're at home?
- draw.scribble.movies.internet.

28. What is your favourite subject?
- (waits for college)

29. What's the best thing that's ever happened to you?
- getting into KPOP :D

30. Tag 10 people:
- I only want to see lynn and ying doing this.haha.and Rudolph

****

The person who tagged you…
- Vanissa ;D

What relationship of you with him/her?
- my sweetheart

Your 5 impressions towards him/her?
- sweet,feminine,gentle,pretty,SWEET AS SUGAR :D

The most memorable thing she/he had done for you?
- uh.Theres a whole bunch. :)

The most memorable thing that he/she had said to you?
- shes good at cold jokes.lol!

If he/she becomes your lover, you will....
- heh.will she be? :P

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
- die.(CHOY)

If he/she becomes your lover , he/she has to improve on..
- english?Good luck in improving your english babe ;D

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
- dont wanna think about it.

The most desirable thing for you to do to him/her is...
- still be her sweetheart! LOL

The overall impression of he/her is...
- SUGAR OVERLOAD

How do you think the people around you feel around you?
- they laugh at me.and says Im funny.Im being myself mahh.How cann

The character for you for yourself is...
- laugh-able

On the contrary, the thing you hate about yourself is...
- I laugh too loudly and it sounds ugly.

The most ideal person you want to be is...
- Han Ga In

For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
- I LIKE YOU TOO 8D

2009-01-11T04:24:00.000-08:00

THE BFF #1

THE BFF #2

THE BFF #3

THE SWEETHEARTS I

THE SWEETHEARTS II

THE SWEETHEARTS III

THE SWEETHEARTS IV

THE SWEETHEARTS V

THE SWEETHEARTS VI

THE COUSIN

THE SISTER

THE MUMMY

a start of a new year and I sense a great journey ahead.(although I've been sick for the past five days and cried three times due to PMS)

I WANT A JOB. NO JOB=SULK AT HOME=USELESS=NO MONEY=NO FURTHER SHOPPING=MISERABLE ME=DESPRESSION
so,if you see any job vacancies around or you know theres a job somewhere out there.Ring me up :)

-
Reason why Im blogging today.

GOOI YING YING AKA MY MONKEY
the blur-yet-so-smart-it-makes-me-jealous has finally turn EIGHTEEN.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE

I have to say I have the most pictures taken with her.lol.

we own almost-same shirts

we pose the same

and we adore the Year End Sales. :D

SO FAST RIGHT?Some just had their seventeen birthday last decemeber.She legally gets to go clubbing/drink/drive and do everything by herself cause shes E I G H T E E N :D

011109 :)

bitch,I know you love my present I bought you and dont forget me in this two months when your at college with your friends kay.

PRETTIEST BITCH ALIVE.For god sake,she look so pretty in every single shot without even trying.lol.You should be so proud that your featured on my blog!And its not a sin for laughing and clapping your hands.Heh.Notice the ELEVEN shes posing with? :D

love you,smart-ass. I made this post blue,and its making me sick.

SARANGHAE <3
smoochies!

i love you today,more than yesterday.

2009-01-07T05:42:00.000-08:00

so um,everyone's at college and im not.

haha.Im taking a break.For my parents and myself.
please do update me with all the fun your having at college and i'll try not to get jealous alright.

AND ALERT.
MR LOOI SHI HAO(omg,his going to google it and find his name here)
has a blog ;)

www.zincsnow.blogspot.com
i doubt his going to update.but his first post is offensively cute.go check it out.

I promoted for you di kay rudolph.No wrinkles ;D

2008-12-31T04:34:00.000-08:00

UPDATE COMING FOR CHRISTMAS EVE!PENANG TRIP!MELACCA!and today,

DECEMBER 31ST! GOODBYE 2008 :)

It was a bumpy ride all year long.especially in the middle.I survived :D

HELLO 2009! :D

I swear I didnt smile as much today.But I'll smile from now,so that i'll have a awesome year ahead.

You too alright? A smile is a curve that sets everything straight.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE

2008-12-22T10:01:00.000-08:00

TWO DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS EVE :D

a reason to be happy?definately.

something very random.I have difficulties thinking of what to drink at chinese hawker restaurants.I just dont know what do I want sometimes.

I changed the song in my blog as I myself find it rather loud,and noisy at times.
TVXQ-Wasurenaide.

give it a try.
Click play.

2008-12-20T07:07:00.000-08:00

I lead the fucking way to KLCC by trains ;D

KTM is so sucky and people are so rude.ugh.Coudnt even line up properly and kept pushing and squeezing and do they ever bathe?Mummy was like screaming BODY ODOUR ALERT and I had to surpressed my laughter or else that indian man would have took out a knife or something.My sister even had the guts to say:"because theres so many malays here" and I pressed her mouth to prevent her from saying more.No offense to the malays or indians.haha.Shes only nine so dont blame her. :D

Waiting for trains are like the worst thing ever.I think I almost die standing yesterday and from all the walking.I got confused with the platforms and had to ask the information counter or else mum might have body cramps from finding our way,walking from one end to another.It isnt my first time having to sit the LRT/KTM but without my kawans handling all the tickets and directing me,Im pretty much a lost puppy.

Tiring and I doubt mummy might ever want to sit take public transport down to KL again.haha.

my eyes were drawn to his hands D:

Thursday.
WAS
THE
DAY
I
DROVE.

hah!so syok can.Never had been so excited in my life.SO NOOB CAN.But nevermind.I just didnt like the manuals having this clutch there and heck,Kancils are so small I feel so squashed up sitting inside.Then they started introducing the fascinating parts of a car.Coudnt be bothered by what the instructor was saying and please lah,my shoes just so happened to be untied!Not like I wanted them to be like that STUPID VICTOR OR WHATEVER HE IS.

I passed the undang test and we saw this cute guy that was like tall and had a prominent jaw line.Surprisingly,on thursday he came for the 6 hour course together with us too!But then,he started speaking chinese and was exactly like those CINA'S that you see walking around in pyramid,thinking that their so attractive all bullshit.pfft.And god,he was ranting about which girl was pretty and which wasnt.His vain and kept mentioning about his hair and what colour should he dye it.

Lynn said:Such a turn-off.

True true.

busy busy week and CHRISTMAS IS COMING GAHHH! I want to put on my santa hat with ying! :D
Off to Melacca tomorow and Jonker Walk!bwaha.Me love.

SUBARU(MOVIE TRAILER) Coming to (Japan)cinemas on March 2009.

Have a great weekend :)
P.S Please tell me where to download high quality english movies and english series.

2008-12-18T03:25:00.000-08:00

pretty in pink

the everything-pink lady.
the ever so feminine lady.
the pretty that doesnt need to even try to be.
the babe that has probrably twenty guys after her but stays loyal and chose to be single.
the only one that covers her mouth everytime she laughs.

undeniably sweet and sassy.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANISSA NG KAI YIEN.
you wont be staying single for long cause your just too darn sweet :)

sorry i coudnt make it to the surprise party today but promise me you'll book for us a day after christmas? Like I said,you wont be let down.
seriously,hopefully your day turns out well and you thoroughly enjoyed yourself and i know your a busy,busy woman.haha.

PRETTY WOMAN,I SO VERY LOVE YOU :D Im sure we'r going to keep in touch next time.

i hope this is short,and sweet enough.lol.After all,sincerity is all that matters,right? *winks*

to end this pretty post today,
to my darling and forever will be,

생일 축하합니다!사랑해요 :)

come to me if you need a good laugh.haha!

so glad you came to seafield or else i'll never ever get to know you. :D
you made a right choice.

(laughs and fades away)

BONUS:

your not angry are you?:D

2008-12-12T08:06:00.000-08:00

genting- Part Two.

SHOO!FLYING COASTER!I never want to ride you again ):

i miss playing with sliding cupboard doors and bouncing up and down on the beds of hotels.I laughed so much that moment I thought I couldnt stop.All ying's fault.She was trying to do some ohgeeimsosexysocomekissme pose and well,they told me I clapped my hands and ran around the hotel room when I was laughing too hard.What to do?I always do that.I might either clap my hands or bang my fists.Thats my habit.So,if you want to know if Im really,as in,really laughing off limits then look out for the signs alright.Then,after I finished my laughing about ying,came Peiyee.PFFT.You should have seen her with her towel,wiping her hair,with her SPECTACLES on.haha!TOO FUNNY I TELL YOU.

on the way to MUSHROOM TOWN :D
well,thats what i call it.

LOL MUCH?

Mr Ken Wee and guess who?haha

I had to post this.Look at how Vanissa's looking at him,and Ying all smiley for the camera,and wtf is he doing,that,i do not know.

The way back to Subang was the worst ride ever.I was sick and had slight fever.Damn.Somemore,had to carry a fucking heavy luggage around.I TELL YOU I RATHER FAINT RIGHT THERE.No pain.pfft.

Im ranting,again.
I better stop.

Miss Vanissa's birthday's coming ;) *winks winks*
Christmas is coming!I sensed the jolly mood it brings.Chocolates,gifts,teddys,santa hats,jelly beans.OOOHHH.

2008-12-12T07:30:00.000-08:00

Went to pyramid to meet up with Li Yuan and it was a little awkward.We havent seen each other for..three years.God.

His a nice guy seriously.And his from Seafield before he left to Singapore for studies.Smart.
I dont know if he reads my blog or not but yeah,if he does. THEN HI :D

Bolt 3D is so not worth it. DO NOT GO FOR IT.My eyes were painful maybe cause it was due to my contacts being dry.I dont know.RM17 for a movie is a no-no.Do not think twice.hah.

SALES EVERYWHERE and OPEN DAYS.Mind leaving me a msg of where your going to study and what?haha.Out of curiousity :)Next monday's the 6K gathering at gasoline.Please come.(i dont know why im saying this)and Im sitting for Undang Test on the following tuesday.yippee.

DRIVE DRIVE DRIVE.
-
FANGIRLING AHEAD.DO NOT READ EXCEPT THOSE THAT ARE INTERESTED :D

so sweet,its diabetic.
DBSK WALL AND DESK CALENDAR 2009.Must get my hands on them.Sugar overload.

MY BABY JUNSU SHIT NOW I KNOW WHY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

Dies,wakes up,and die again

Congratulations in taking the Golden Disk Awards Daesang :)

PROMOTING:
Bolero.25th Japanese Single.
To be released on January 21 2009- Natalie's birthday.Nat must be so proud.haha. :D
Its part of the original soundtrack in a new japanese movie soon to be on screen in March 2009-Subaru.

Its about some ballerina that strives to go on with life.
-

Next up-

2008-12-09T02:30:00.001-08:00

just came back from lynn's house after watching madagascar 2 and had some random talking :)

GENTING 8D let the pictures do the talking as theres really nothing to say except that

FLYING COASTER IS A SUCKASS.Dont even try of getting me on that thing again.hmrp.
Vanissa and peiyee said our screamings were like the keyboard notes going ' Do,Re,Mi' at each different turnings.I was really screaming my head out and grasped onto the metal bar till my hands got all red and sweaty when it was over.We went to check out our photos at some Fuji station and ohmygod,yiwon was sleeping during the ride ;D Not really the sleeping,sleeping you know.Just that,her face was a blank.haha!Too funny.

I coudnt help feeling sorry for myself when I got sick and puked in our room's toilet.I ruined everything D: No bathtub photoshoots and no jumping.Argh.Thank you babes for helping me to rush around to get medicines.I didnt enjoyed thoroughly the next day when we woke up at 5am to see the sunrise.haha.In the end,NO SUNRISE despite of waiting for two hours.

Themepark! How can you not go to the themepark when your at genting? D: Most of the boys were off elsewhere lurking around and they had a buffet worth RM50 when we had only pizza.haha.There were actually three gangs that were supposed to be at Genting that day.The Seafieldians,The SU's,and The KDU's.Didnt had the chance to bump to Ee Tien or Jun Lin and the rest.

Part One
Ends

2008-12-08T20:39:00.000-08:00

i suddenly realised yesterday while going through blogs,

I dont want to go seperate ways,
I dont want us to be at different sides of the world,
I dont want to go to farewell parties to bid farewell.

2008-12-06T00:58:00.000-08:00

so many to update about and life is more fun-filling now :)
minus the falling sick and puking part

-KARAOKE & TWILIGHT
-HANGING OUT WITH MEI YEN BABY!
-GENTING!and falling sick.pfft.
-UNDANG UNDANG UNDANG(now baru take undang,yeah I know)
We bumped into Edna Loh,Teng Sheng, and Andrew.Its been so long since I saw Edna.Shes so FAIR :D

Im going to taylors to check out their open day tomorrow.See you guys there if your going.

and!Sorry I coudnt make it to Ju Ee's party (I was puking gawd),yeah well so..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JU EE :D FASTER GO TAKE UNDANG ALSO!

p.s YING,YIWON AND SASA! I WANT PICTURES SO I CAN FREAKING UPDATE :P

2008-12-05T01:55:00.000-08:00

LYNN SAYS OHHHHH,I SEE ;D

Lynn (and her neverending laughters)

owing her a birthday post,so now you know why.

Best known for her high pitched dolphin-like,or i rather say ghostly-like laughters and I just dont know why on earth do I get close friends that have their faces turning red and blushes so easily.First,it was Natalie,then now her.Also,she laughs at things that nobody finds funny and that gives her brownie points when she never stops once she starts.Creepy.It'll either end up the rest walking away and leave her laughing or laughs AT her cause her whole face,especially her forehead(oh yes,i've noticed) is as red as THIS.

She plays with her phone way too much,and is the reason that why my phone bills shoot up so high for the past months.She should totally get a new boyfriend to sms with instead of smsing to everyone(if im not wrong), everyday,without fail.If i dont receive any messages from her,even for day,It gets really odd and theres the urge to message her to see whats she up to.

(cracks brain to think of something to write)
So um yeah,shes one stubborn,aggresive person and gets heat up very easily I might say.She gets on my nerves so frequently,but we end up forgetting about what we were actually arguying about (through the phone).LOL.

Lynn's the only one i find that knows how to think,and act for her age.And the only one that actually have the sincerity to write me letters or cards.I love getting hand-written letters or emails.(winks)Mature,independant,and most importantly,she doesnt over-react.But sometimes,you've got to loosen up a'lil alright?Dont get so caught up in everything,you'll find life easier:)

Dont worry too much about your future kay,at least,for now.

Quotes: Its good to pretend ;D

much love to you.MUAH MUAH!*sends a sloppy,wet kiss*
thanks so much for the yellow shirt with shoes hanging kay.lol!

muah muah muah muah muah muah muah muah muah.enough?

2008-11-30T20:50:00.001-08:00

OFF TO PLAY

2008-11-27T00:58:00.000-08:00

when everyone is happily cheering and shouting for their freedom.what do i do?
sit in a bloddy corner and cry my heart out cause i still have one more paper to go.And that paper isnt easy.If it was english,again,I woudnt mind.

anyhow,Im still VERY,EXTREMELY happy for all of you that officially finished your SPM today ;D *double cheers* When my time comes,i'll cheer even louder than all of you.hah!I've been promising to blog frequently now that everythings back to normal,and colledge life!oh my god,cant wait!

I checked the NS list yesterday night.Im placed in batch two and some others like Vanissa and Angeline was placed in batch three and two.HOW CAN LA YOR?! I sent in and applied for batch one before that,and now?See what I get?Malaysia's govourment tsk tsk.I'll either be defering it(most prob) or applying again to try my luck.Its not like I WANT to go,but who knows it'll turn out fun? ;D

*goes off to change yoochun's icon because natalie and peiyee complains it doesnt look good* PFFTTT.

SALES ARE COMING SO WHOS IN WITH ME?And before i forget,have a nice trip to INDON yah lynn,and Natalie's going Japan,Pei yee's going korea,Melissa's going taiwan.Where am I going? home.

(..............)

Junsu a day keeps the doctor away :)

2008-11-25T20:16:00.000-08:00

a freak.thats what I am.a freak!

I just cant believe that I was wanting to change my blogskin to a TVXQ's themed one.
Im turning into a freak!

luckily I still have some sense in me.I will not let myself turn into some fangirl thats out of her wits.NO.WILL NOT.HAH.

On second thought,maybe I will use it.Oh,shit.

I have yet to receive my NS letter and If im not in the first batch then YEAH! NO MORE NS WORRIES FOR ME :D
you dont expect me to go when Im already in colledge and everything,do you?

I've got so much to catch up with,and I still have the passion to blog,I think.Just that it wont be anymore interesting than before and that is to say,I FAIL in this,badly.

I MISS MY BABE <3
24/11/07
I still look the same after ONE FREAKING YEAR?GOD.I think I do.

2008-11-25T00:24:00.000-08:00

JUST EST AND ACCOUNTS TO GO.

EST=NOTHING.

2008-09-27T03:11:00.000-07:00

Damn the IMEEM box at the side.How do I make it smaller? lol.

I cried to this song.And I rarely cry over a song, or a book.Not even a movie,or drama.My mum says I am heartless.They cry,I'll laugh.Its funny to see them crying when you know all of it is a pretend.A scene.

but I cried over this song.Maybe because of the lyrics?or maybe because I heard it live,and Jaejoong's voice is just way too much to handle.
Oh well.Please give it a try.Dont,if your not into slow songs.

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crying,
dont try to comfort me,a pity
Just let me go.
Dont wait for a miserable person like me.
You have to hate me.

Dont cry,
just pretend that Im dead forever,
leave it like that.
Crying,
I wont return to you again.
Its over,
so now,
dont cry.

Crying,
I think I'll go crazy,
your crying alone,but

Dont cry
your starting again ,for my sake
you shouldnt cry like me
Crying,
If we ever meet by chance in the future,
I want you to turn away.

Dont cry,
I wont return to you, ever again.
Its over,
crying.
Dont cry.Dont cry.

credits to whoever it may be.
Im playing my role in getting more Malaysians to know about korean songs and how lovely they can be,compared to some chinese songs that I do not want to mention.

2008-09-19T01:12:00.000-07:00

THE GODS ARE BACK :D

from 2003 till 2008.

MIROTIC. FOURTH KOREAN COMEBACK ALBUM.
little sneak preview of their music video that totally got caught me on.

It is a not a remake of Sarah's Under My Skin.The producers received the sample of the song the same time as Sarah's producer did.Just that it was released later than Sarah's.

NOT A REMAKE.They own it,still.

Junsu's OMO is to die for.

and HOT ALBUM COVERS. HAH! GO BUY GO BUY!

and oh my god.I just found out that we can actually add &fmt=18 to the back of a youtube link to see the high quality version of it.Am I stupid or what?

(FANGIRL SCREAMS)
Counting down to September 24th. The release of their album. ;)

2008-08-29T07:23:00.000-07:00

PLEASE DONT CLICK TO ENLARGE! IT'LL BE TOO BIG AND TOO SCARY. LOL

Just a little update of whats happened recently during the august holidays :)

THANK YOU TO ALL ME LOVES THAT WISHED ME AND GAVE ME CARDS/LETTERS/ OR MY CAKE AND PRESENTS :D

MUAH!<3

2008-08-16T21:00:00.000-07:00

BLOG CLOSED DOWN FOR THE MOMENT:D

I wont be replying tags or posting up anything,unless I have to.

I WILL read your tags though and I still go bloghopping once in awhile.heh.

Just so you know,

MY BIRTHDAY'S COMING UP.GAH! RAWR! What'cha gonna do huh? lol.

and take a look a this

CREWCUT-JUNSU! GAH! *dies*

THE CUTEST THING EVER.

P.S I KENA NS!FUCKING KENA CAN? (off to die)

2008-07-12T04:04:00.000-07:00

JOGGING IS AWESOME ;D

yeah. Jogging with friends, are even awesome-er. is there even a word for it?

too bad I didnt bring my camera along, so I could snap us being all sweaty and stuff.
Im so going to go jogging again , with friends. Of course. lol.

I feel like I've just lose some weight :D

HAPPY GILER.

and lynn's mum claim I look like..Jamie who? Shes a female host for some sports program. :)

oh. and I've met up with Miss Cherie :) My camera was such a big let down. but gah. Remind me not to go for karaoke in a few weeks time.After a few weeks, feel free to call me up to it..anyone? hehe.

Shinying's got such a pretty voice by the way. She should so go for some auditions to be a star or something :D
I'll be your #1 fan .

<3

2008-07-10T06:01:00.000-07:00

Intensive courses? Seminars? Crash course?

shit fuck. Im swearing . and thats not good.

Pn Chong encouraged me to start studying HARD for trials. and I assume I will...

from tomorow onwards.

2 hours MAX per day to go online.
and at least 2 hours of studying. :)

I have to do something! gosh.

someone put away the notebook and i'll definately get myself into schoolbooks. Come to think of it.. I get distracted easily..

and I fcking need MUSIC to study. wtf right?
-

random conversations are lovely :)

especially when you talk and talk and talk, without knowing your talking, and what your blabbering about.
From insisting about how hot that boy is, to how fucked up it is to have to call up sponsors. lol.

Yeah.Their scary. The people in charge of the advertising and marketing department of course. heh. I get so overly consious about how I speak, and end up mumbling to myself on the phone.

anyway, people get bored of one another easily. So, sometimes, changing partners might be good for all of us.
Everyone's friends. Dont care if we'r close with them or not. We communicate, and thats all that matters.

2008-06-27T23:26:00.000-07:00

some humans get so tensed up by my little post, which meant no harm. But I guess it did? ah, the bitch is still pretending, I can see that.

and oh my god, I did not mentioned names in this post! So please ,dont assume that its you, kay?

*chuckles* I've edited my previous post. and whoever's interested please read it again.

anyway, clicheterms. you googled yourself! lol.Or else you woudnt have come across my blog.
oh gee, Im honoured having you here. HAHA.

-
and to my lovely kawans,

clicheterms is just someone I want to rant about. hehe. No need to bother about her anyway. teehee.

maybe shes mad? who knows? LOL

bye darlings!<3

2008-06-27T00:07:00.000-07:00

School is a waste of time.
I'd rather stay at home and study myself. Without distractions.

short notes
- Im back to reading novels again. :)
- I got lucky, and was picked to attend the Malam Amal from a lucky draw. The thing is, Im not going. I paid RM16.50 only. So it was actually convincing to go.
-again, Im not going for the Charity thingy.
and,Im busy on saturday nights. ;D

Note to self : MUST STUDY! MUST DO ADD MATH! MUST REVISE CHEMISTRY!

A/N : Shinying, I want to read your blog. and Im so sorry, but my line got cut off that day when I was talking with you. I havent heard all of your story yet, have I?

:D

Im trying to get back being my hippie self again.

TVXQ's New single PV. DVD cover.

Their angels :)

Doushite kimi wo suki natte shimattandarou

2008-06-24T02:57:00.000-07:00

Do people ever notice when im not being myself?

When Im not being myself, I get creepily quiet. heh. and you have to figure out yourself why I was not being myself back then.
I think some noticed, but they never bothered to ask. Or maybe they think I dont even want to talk to them.

But yeah, you got that wrong. I want to talk ,play,laugh like everyone else. However sometimes, I cant. I tried reminding myself to just sway into the conversation, and dont get awkward but I cant.

Just so you want to know,
Im sensitive,
and I dont like people getting the wrong idea about me.

Please think before you talk. Im trying not to rely that much on you, and I think Im succeeding :)

I live for the sake of living. RAWR!

2008-06-21T20:53:00.000-07:00

so now i know, that seeing a movie in the cinema with your mum and seven year old sister can make me feel cuddly and all warm inside. haha!

yeah.so, KUNGFU PANDA IS A MUST WATCH :D
i detest watching it in the first place, but you'll like it after you watch it. You wont think that you've wasted your money for good seats just like that.heh.

I personally favour the storyline and the animations were good.you wont stop laughing once you start watching it.heh.So if your all moody and upset , go book your tickets and head down to the cinema now.Im sure you'll be walking out from it, smiling away.
-
Open Day.

I assumed mum woudnt come to school cause I personally told her not to since the teacher dont even know my name.hah.Its pathetic.But then,after seeing thousands of parents coming in, and i dont know why, but i sort of felt lonely.

'so lonely'

got that? lol.And thats when I knew that I'd actually wanted my mum to come, more than anything else.I wanted her to tag along with me at the education fair, and i wanted to tell her everything about my classmates,teachers and the happenings in school.So, I found myself punching my mum's handphone number using the school's public telephone.

Mum uttered a ' See first ' and ended the conversation. and again, I was actually dissapointed. So, very dissapointed. Seeing all the mums walking around with their sons/daughter, I envied them. God knows why.

I think I basically stood looking over the balcony in front of my class for ages, hoping to see my mum.

(okay, this is getting laggy)
THEN HOR. after standing there for 15 minutes or so? I SAW HER WALKING UP THE STAIRS. like wtf, I still dont get why I was so happy seeing her.lol.I thought she'd never came. although she' end up being the last one to have a talk with Pn Chin.haha.

Im overwhelmed, to be exact.

I came back home, along with a bag of brochures and finally, a man from HELP university college,managed to convince me into Accountings and Finance.I asked around about the qualifications for studying law, and mass communication as well.

hm , and yeah. Mummy said it was my choice :)
But daddy wanted me to go for Accounting and Finance. He didnt asked for my opinion anyway. Oh well.
-
another song for today. Did you even try listening to sg wannabe's lalala ? pfft.
Yoon Gun ; Will you come back to me?
Sad Love Song - Sad Love Song

2008-06-18T01:19:00.000-07:00

June 18th.

The one and only.
LANG BOON YAU
is officially seventeen :D

His birthday totally hit me, and I realised Im not being a good friend. ahha. Forgetting about this boy's birthday ! The only one that can seriously make me crack up and laugh everytime i see him.He might be annoying, but heck , his one of the nicest people I've ever met.

He lives a stree-free life, with nothing to worry about.Knowing him for almost two years to be precise, he goes all the way out for people that needs his help.Even if he cant help in anyway, he'll try.He helped me go through hard times.Even if its just sitting by my side and not doing anything.It helps me to know that someone out there actually cares for me and is willing to keep me company.

All in all, he knows how to make me happy. :)
I dont think he knows it that his presence might be pretty annoying at times, but he still holds an important place in me.
I like it how he tries not to hurt someone, and indirectly, he doesnt want someone to get sad.

haha.I told him to read this. But i dont know if he will.I'll get you a present,for sure.Dont fret alright?Keep being your happy-go-lucky self, and make everyone around you the same. Dont stop being yourself. I'll be there for you next time ! hahah!

Happy Birthday to you! Have a great life ahead, boy :D
-
life's crazy. and i dont even want to talk about it. Even if I do, no one wants to listen right? Coming home makes me so happy,to see my mother and all.Thats all i cant live without now.

My family.

I have to talk to someone, but theres actually no one i can really lean onto.Not even the ones I love.Im by myself now.
Frankly, I dont know what im becoming.With people,friends around me; they changed.

Can someone tell me if I've changed in some way? Just tell me.I want to know what you think of me.and maybe some others might have heard of this before.

IM ANTI-SOCIAL. like hell right?
it hurts man. Seriously, it does. And having someone that dont even knows me, claiming that im dumb? HECK. look into the mirror, and see who's talking.

I feel so lifeless, and out of place.I dont know where I belong.I brushed everything aside today and picked up a book to read.Reading is good.I drown myself entirely into the book and it distracts me from everything else that is happening around me.Finishing a book can make me feel somewhat...accomplished?

What goes around, comes around.
What you did to me, you know it yourself. Just be careful.

Someone's watching you, somewhere.
-
Im ending this post today. I know some of my friends still read , even though they dont tag :D I dont mind, as long as someone reads it.

I grow stronger by day.

listening to SG WANNABE's LALALA. cause it makes me happy.
La La La - SG Wanna Be

2008-06-12T03:53:00.000-07:00

Thailand fans are lucky.

SM Entertainment will be holding a concert in Thailand at the end of the year which includes

TVXQ . SuperJunior, SNSD. and three more groups for a whole six hours D:

HOW COME? WHY NOT MALAYSIA?!

Yeah. Cause nobody has interest in them. lol.

Except me.

now, thats sad.
-
Before going off.
Im already back to school, and i dont like it at all.

Although photoshoots of our senior page was rather fun.

I DONT LIKE IT.

i think im turning into an anti-social. and people hates me. For god knows why.

Im sticking to myself.
-
today,

In Summer Splash, which was utterly boring at first, but got better towards the end :)

Melissa baby !

the pretty :)

OH! BLUEY! *waves*

2008-06-10T03:28:00.000-07:00

oh gosh.

people, do get real.
Especially THE BITCH. BITCH OFF. [Edited]
Edited, and yes, call me a coward.But Im giving you some respect. pfft.
GET REAL D:

SNSD deserve it. FUCK THE GIRLS. hahaha ! everything that happened at dream concert was good :)

and im not being mean. But i dont even care if the girls cried backstage or not.
and i Dont care what will happen after that.

But I just dont like them. For no particular reason.
Im done. yeah.

off.
lilbrat.

and omg readers, i dont think you might understand what i just typed in just now. heh. It wasnt meant for you. But for THE BITCH They try too hard to become a goody-goody person.you cant lie to me cause i can see through you.

2008-06-05T23:57:00.000-07:00

Headed to One Utama last wednesday, and guess who I bumped in to?

None other than Miss Kong Ei-lynn! nyaha. how creepy is that? I thought I'll be bumping into some other people as well, but nah.

I got bored strolling along with my grandmother, mother, and my aunt. So, ohmygosh, bumping into Lynn is outrageously lucky. Or else, I rather stay at home slacking in my couch or something.
She left her parents and insisted in taking NEOPRINTS :D Gah, that thing is unaffordable.

turned out pretty nice and yeah, in the end, i coudnt get my pair of FLIP-FLOPS from Studio R cause mum was ushering me home. gee.

I WANT MY FLIP-FLOPS. KYAHHH!

Going shopping with just a friend beside you, and no one else is heavenly. Who wants to try it out with me again? nyahaha.

pretty pictures with pretty lynn :D
[EDITED] Lynn's a fuss . ( haha)

one more thing,
I like my legs.

ROFLIMAO!

Summer Splash is so close :D Yeah, tomorrow. So? Candy Eyes, anyone? lol. I NEED TO GET WET.

Lynn has big boobs eh? :D

We are officially bad photographers.

I LOVE MY RING :D

eu-kyang-kyang

2008-06-03T07:27:00.000-07:00

Just so you know,

JUNSU WENT TOPLESS IN HIS RECENT SHANGHAI SOLO CONCERT PERFORMANCE.

hah. how hot is that?
How I wish I was there, and i might even be in Heaven now.

Warning NC-17

HAHA.
His too skinny, for some reason. Junsu's a grown up :D KYAHH!
Sorry if it digusts you.

MY PAGE - Kim JunSu.
( Close-up performance, His S-Line is so loved! )

2008-05-29T09:43:00.000-07:00

this, is to my so-called soulmate.

who is there everytime i need her, or even if i dont need her at all, and find her quite annoying, but nevertheless, shes a darling to me :)
This post is written , from deep down of my heart , without caring much of how others feel, and trying not to please them anymore. This is only for you .

Thank you for your company, and talks we've had together and although i have not known you for long, but I get so comfortable talking to you, laughing and all.And yes, you are annoying, seriously, at times. Of course, theres times I dont like what your doing, and you dont like what I am. But 'Opposite Attracts' and i know no matter how much we differ from each other, we still enjoy each other's company. I know you do la, sayang.

You made me realise, that I live for nobody else but myself ( though i think i live for the sake of living) and from now, i will be trying not to care more for the ones that cares, and care less for the ones that dont deserve it.I dont realise what I've got myself into throughout this year, but I tend to try to find out why do they hate me so much?why I cant get along with them as much as I get along with you? Maybe people just dont like someone for no particular reason, and thats why.That has been the past, and im moving on, with or without them.

Im afraid of hurting, im sure you know this. Im afraid of getting hurt, and even if i want to brush off what words that ever did harmed me in certain ways, I coudnt. I get stuck to them, and without knowing, I try to be a better person, for them. For them. And im hating myself for it.

This is to everybody. EVERYBODY. Please dont get all caught up.

and to my soulmate :)
Love you loads, although you might not know and maybe the things I do create some misunderstandings somewhere. But really, I do love you .
-
I've been overusing the word, Love.

So, now onwards, when i speak of love, i mean it.

*chuckles* okay. This is getting creepy.
I LOVE THOSE THAT LOVES ME. AHHH! *screams and runs around in circles*

P.S eh natalie, mana you pergi ar? your msn got problem isit? Never seen you online dah lama. And YOU BETTER SMS ME, somehow or rather. LOL.

love,
lilbrat.

2008-05-28T06:57:00.000-07:00

Sundays with Yingying :)

yeah, i think nobody knew I spent my Sunday with her. It was a last-minute thing anyway. Isit? lol. Yeah, so now you know. lol.

I got back home, exhausted.But then off I am, heading to Jun's place, and

I GOT TO SEE KEVIN PLAYING THE DRUMS :D
and gwad, he is good for a beginner.

If your in some particular room with the door closed, you can feel your heart thumping hard and its like your at a live band concert or something where your just standing infront of the loud speakers.

anyway, I didnt play it cause im afraid i'll scratch his oh-so-mighty drum set.

tsk. I will, next time. and i'll take a picture and show it off ! GAH!

oh oh. Right.
CARLS JUNIOR IS PURE LOVE :D

you have to try it if you havent. And i know, I just tried it that day, and it tastes so good.

A BURGER A DAY KEEPS (who?) AWAY !

yay for Carls Jr !
scratch that. Here's for ying, who keeps complaining shes thin, and im, obviously, not.
accompanied her for some shopping :D

THIS REMINDS ME OF GETTING A FRINGE HAIRCUT D:

LOVE THE BABY TEES! and Ying keeps stating that the hoodie was fantabulous :D

2008-05-24T03:56:00.000-07:00

JAEJOONG : AND , I WAS LIKE WTF??!!

CRACK OF THE DAY :D Thats a caption. You didnt think he actually said that , did you?

being random.
Just had to say that girls that whine irritates the hell out of me.
How do they even get themselves whining away like that?

and im off the edge if they whine about small matters that dont really matter that much, to the people around them . Im just being nice that day, without telling her off.

That girl needs to stop that whining of hers.

Such a whore.

no one reads my blog. I wonder why i bother to post.
but i'll still post anyway :)

between who you are, and who you should be.
between how it is, and how it could be.

2008-05-23T08:05:00.000-07:00

I just happened to know that i simply have nothing to rant about.

but anyway,

DAVID COOK WON YEAH. :D Scream with me baby.
I dont really know anything about the David's and American Idol Season 7, but heck, i came across Cook's performance of Always Be My Baby and god he sang beautifully.

Archuleta's cute. But uh, his way of singing Apologize , With you and some other songs is just,

not quite right D: Sorry.

I think im OVER OBSESSED with Kim JunSu.

my life revolves around him, somehow .

P.S Taeyeon, get away from him. :D

2008-05-21T06:28:00.000-07:00

i try, and eventhough i know it doesnt bring me anywhere.

I still try.

and If you tried, please keep trying, for me.

with much love,
lilbrat.

2008-05-09T05:53:00.000-07:00

Im hyped-up. and JUNSU had to make me smile :)

SPELL SEXY

Cute, No? and yes Su, your more yummy then the breadstick :D

I HEART YOU TOO SU AH !! :D
(screams)

and something SO FUCKING ADORABLE YOU WANT TO GOOBLE HIM UP.

TOLD YOU SO.

Im Junsu-fied.

2008-04-18T06:24:00.000-07:00

IU NIGHT .
wasnt exactly awesome.

okay, well. the dancefloor was a big let down. yeah, basically everything rock, only the dancefloor.

LEO's IU DANCEFLOOR WAS THE BOMB . Damn, i should have went. lol.
anyway, despite of all the trouble i've went through. ( yeah, my contacts/hair/nails )
bleh. I love me without my spectacles ! hah !

I used to despice them cause i have really dark circles around my eyes. I look awful in them. Even now i still have to apply foundations to cover it up. Not fun at all.

my pretty girlfriends :)

SHIT. STUPID BLOGGER.

2008-04-11T21:48:00.000-07:00

Dedicating this song, to

Natalie, Mei Yen,Pei Yee,Vanissa,Ei-Lynn,Melissa,Ying ying,Angeline,Boon Yau...

and to all the others whom i did not mention here,

i love all of you, and thank you for helping me in everything that i've been through.
MUAH :D
*smoochies and kisses*

proud; by TVXQ

I cried after listening to the song, and try to understand the lyrics. Im way touched.

Proud
Passing by at a quick pace
I wonder how much of a season had already gone?

Walking through the scenery I’ve become familiar with
Without being able to slip away
From these distant memories alone
It's like I completely lost my destination
That was the time when I met you

We met by chance along this road
Even now I can’t forget, ever since that day
Much of the sorrow and anxiety I held
Everything had been changed
Through the warmth of your memories
Proud of your love

Finding two shells
Is just like a miracle..
Meeting you once more

If you're here beside me
Even the depths of my heart
Would be comfortable with this gentle feeling
Even if violent rain falls down
And strong winds blow about

I'll go out to protect this love
If we're together we can surely overcome all
Could I have thought like that at first?
So I don’t let go of this hand
I'll always gaze carefully at time

We met by chance along this road
Even now I can’t forget, ever since that day
Things that live on, things that I believe in
While changing towards happiness,
We’d both walk along together
Proud of your love

2008-03-22T20:09:00.000-07:00

Tagged by Sasa :D

5 Things found in my bag:
1. my purse (that needs to be changed)
2. handphone
3. tissue !
4. my camera
5. lipgloss

5 Things in my wallet:
1. empty angpaos! :D
2. Cash
3. Cards?
4. Coins
5. tons of receipts

5 favourite things in my room:
1. the pictures :)
2. the pretty deco's
3. my..em..deco's?
4. my. em. deco's also. lol
5. NONE. lol. i dont really adore soft toys.

5 things I always wanted to do:
1. parties & sleepovers
2. buying things without checking the prices. D:
3. to stop being so emotional these weeks.
4. understand korean and Japanese
5. KISS JUNSU and YOOCHUN :D(wtf, yes. its true)
5 things I'm currently into:
1. JUNSU 8D
2. Korean Pops and Japanese Pops
3. YOOCHUN is right up on my list.
4. TVXQ *squeals*
5. youtube-ing and veoh-ing.

List out the top 4 presents you wish for:
1. i need a new handphone. lol.
2. TVXQ's GOODIES :D
3. Kisses from everyone. lol!
4. something deep down from your heart :) (I cry easily)

The person who tagged you is: SASA <3

Your 5 impressions of him/her:
1. duh. pretty.
2. duh. very soft, sweet and gentle. ( I am so right about this)
3. mysterious? lol. she dont often talk about herself. does she?
4. attractive.
5. dances :)

Most memorable thing she has done to you:
em. em. i dont know ! lol. but we became the laughing stocks in our chemisty tuition class at Pn Poh's. LOL.

If he/she becomes your lover, you will still:
love her :) but then. i've always love that babe .

If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
because i think shes very pretty :P

Pass the quiz to 5 people:
em. everyone did this.

2008-03-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

quote a friend ' They dont love you,but nevermind.Cause theres still plenty that loves you '

:)
it made me smile

2008-03-18T08:06:00.000-07:00

im trying very hard.

and i think im not being a good friend afterall.

this is getting sucky. Have no idea whats going to happen next :)

will things get over?

or maybe i should say. When can i get over it ?
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I wanted to tell you i knew about it. I knew what was going on.
I wanted to talk to you about it.
So both of us can get over it. and then maybe we can pretend nothing ever did happen :)

and long live our friendship. heh :D
yeah. talk about betraying .

whats that suppose to be
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i hope you see this. cause i know you do

2008-03-13T05:45:00.000-07:00

FINALLY. PICTURES OF ME AND ONLY ME :D
Its rare :)

AHH. TOILET MIRRORS AND US :)

From left to right ; Ying's cousin(19),Ying,Yeong Nee,and ME :D

Believe it or not.Ying Ying's cousin house and my grandmother's house is only a few rows away back in Alor Setar,Kedah!

COOL RIGHT?

Thats what i call, FATE:)

2008-03-13T04:33:00.001-07:00

To a bitch.

Eh,
PLEASE CORRECT YOUR ENGLISH BEFORE POSTING. gyahahah.
they make no sense at all. and my eyes hurts when i read them. lol.

No offense :)

oh lol. sorry. i did post this on purpose though.
:)
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PICTURES :D GYAH!

Taylor's College :) WITH OUR VERY OWN PIGGY EARS .

Im with BEAR EARS. hah!

OMG. CUTE RIGHT? *SCREAMS AND RUN OFF*

Cupcakes. and TOO SWEET if you ask me .

2008-03-13T04:17:00.000-07:00

One Utama :)
very amusing day i could say.

love the company and so .One more thing.

DONT GO NEWAY IF YOU CAN GO FOR REDBOX.
nyahahah.
Not much of Japanese songs and Korean songs to choose from. but then, WE EACH HAD A MIC!
hah! We dont have to take turns using the microphones.Right Pei Yee? :P

and oh! our piggy ears<3

HELLA COOL :D

anyway, i just want to thank Melissa for everything :) Thanks for being such a good listener.
and i know when i say this, Ei-lynn will go

" EH? ME LEH?" lol.
i love my girlfriends.and oh. who can actually forgot about THE BUS AND TAXI'S INCIDENT? HAHA.
Riding buses and taxi's may be freaky.
but when you know how to get some fun out of it. Then, its different :)

We were searching for U88( which, according to Ying ying's *ehem* will take us to somewhere so that we can then take another bus down to Subang Jaya)
BUT THEN, TAK DE U88 .lol. Wasted one whole hour there.

Then, only we realised we were stuck. Stuck at One Utama and we cant get home. LOL.
Being crazy with the girls and yelling here,singing there was so much fun i tell you.
I so need to do that again.

Hor? lol.

Melissa and Ying ying were all hyped up when they were in the bus and we were the ones talking, laughing and giggling away while we had almost everyone looking at our direction.
Can you believe it? FORTY-FIVE MINUTES already, but we were still in the first bus, heading towards KL SENTRAL.

LOLOLOL. KL SENTRAL!hahah.
yeah. We were like children who coudnt find our mummy's :D

Mummy was nagging on the phone and asking
" WHERE ARE YOU NOW? DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME ISIT?' okay, i know. Mums. heh.

We didnt really have the time to walk around and take our own sweet time to check out clothes and so. But, i really did have a great time :)

KARAOKE-ING FOR 3 WHOLE HOURS. YAY :D

I had an adventure. EU KYANG KYANG.

oh my god, i must go out with them again some other time. :) They make me happy.
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and to Ei-Lynn the bitch :D

[EDITED] lol.
Love you! BITCH XD
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Havent found the right dress yet for Interact IU's day. Help? lol.

2008-03-06T07:01:00.000-08:00

BIG THANK YOU for everyone of you that is willing to listen to me :)
especially to Melissa, Ei-Lynn and Ying Ying .

its the holidays and i just want to be happy.i'll try to forget everything during the holidays.

Friends are the ones that cheer you up when your really down, but they are also the ones that will make you feel your actually at the ends of the world.

The times that you made me feel so incredibly upset and frustrated is crazy.
I fought back the tears and no one really knew what happened to me.

easy. Cause no one cares.

[EDITED]
if your not used to me being all crappy and depressed. then leave.

2008-02-21T22:41:00.000-08:00

DONG BANG SHIN KI' S NEW ALBUM T :)

Junsu's single is coming out !ah. cant wait cant wait cant wait.
i've been reading fanfictions(is that right?) lately.

Of Yoosu. ahh. ME LOVE. KYAH.
and i know your looking all confused now.

Yoochun + Junsu = YOOSU :D
Look out for Yoochun's SMEXY ENGLISH!
his smile towards the end is to die for.

and here goes a video for it.

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I updated for a reason, you know.
22/2/2008

Hah. nice number eh?
ITS MY DARLING COUSIN'S BIRTHDAY. hah.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE YEONG NEE :D
i love you banyak banyak.I stick to her whenever im back in my hometown. and shes probrably one of my closest cousin :)

CAUSE SAME AGE MAH. lol.and we'r girls. heh.
she recently had a break-up with her boyfriend. but ahh.

his not worth it babe . I know you'll get another one soon. lol!
and ppfftt. sorry lah. No other pictures of you. HEH.

2008-01-21T01:56:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HSIEN YOONG.
You just have to stay cute and chubby.
hehe.

BIG BOY JOR. SO...GROW UP! LOL! :D
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21/1/2008.
guess who's birthday is it?

UH HUH. NO OTHER THAN THE UBER HOT AND SEXY NATALIE PHOON CARMEN!
note: also known as Nathalie,Natalia,Nat-a-lie and of course, Nat.

heh.
this girl's got the guts, got the looks and got the body.
and now shes seventeen.

Can you believe it?
I've been with her,for,like say...
ELEVEN YEARS STRAIGHT!She was only 7 back then,
but now shes 17!

like omg wtf your a grown up already.
AND YOUR OLD. HAHA.
at least, older than me,that is.

to tell you frankly, you are not a good teacher. LOL!! (inside joke)
IM SERIOUS OKAY. Your not good at it. and, your impatient when you teach.

lol. kay kay.

all the best alright? and DAH CUKUP LA WITH YOUR WINNIE THE POOH. Im getting(quite) sick of it already. lol.
but I know you love the present right? Just say yes.
and my card !

MY EFFORT TAU! lol.
again, happy birthday. And i'll make sure you have a birthday cake as well. :)

with all the love from your VERY VERY BEST FRIEND,
lilbrat.
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p.s you better hug it to sleep everynight ! lol.

oh my god, i actually wrote an essay of 2272 words in it. yay!

2008-01-15T01:59:00.001-08:00

about me, you and her.

im not being myself.but no one noticed.
i think shes not being herself too, but i noticed.
maybe if someone noticed it and asked me about it. i'll feel better.
i'll feel..
relieved.

but then. who WILL notice me?
even if im not around. i guess everybody's life goes on. and so does mine.
i know the good ones and the bad ones and the bad-trying-to-be-good ones. :)

i know you all.

but yet, you dont know me.
is that what friends are for? i rather not have one.

a simple question: why are you so not yourself today?
will definately put a big,fat smile on my face.

so i guess the reason why im being so cranky and all that,
im not feeling good. i dont like pretending. its hard and im sick of it.
i tried being myself around them.

but once again, i cant.
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you should really learn how to care for my feelings. and perhaps others.
you didnt know that everytime shes there, we fall apart. and everything goes wrong.

p.s NO. im not talking about any boy out there. NO. im not a GAY/LESBIAN/ WHATEVER YOU CALL IT.

2008-01-11T00:25:00.000-08:00

AHEM.

11-1-08 ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MISS GOOI YING YING. THE NUMBER ONE GENIUS IN EVERYTHING.
haha. screw it.

i love you babe <3>you .

SARANGHAE NEH :D

i've sang a birthday song for you already , today, in the toilet. HAHA.

p.s i know no one visits my blog already. LOL! yeah. but im writing this for the great YING YING :P

hahaah.

2008-01-03T01:56:00.000-08:00

Want more of XIAH JUNSU? heh.

You have to click it one by one to see it move :) ( ABOVE) please click.you wont regret.

sorry if i made your computer lag or something.

SHIT. IM OBSESSED OVER THIS BOY.

2008-01-03T01:37:00.000-08:00

the first day of school.

as a form five student,i have nothing to worry about.

Except for the fact that
ONE. HAH. SPM 8D and school examinations all over again
TWO.National Service
THREE.Injections/Jabs
FOUR.DRIVING TEST and UNDANG TEST.
FIVE. Packed schedules with tuitions and classes and NO PLAY.
SIX.Homeworks. D:

W T F

life's difficult. oh and i DO NOT LIKE where im sitting now in class.
YOU CRAZY AR ASK ME TO SIT AT A PLACE LIKE THAT. pfft.
In front of the damned RUBBISH BIN somemore.

no way kay?

and the fact that im not nominated for anything and am very gleeful/thankful of that. THANK YOU. KAMSAMIDA :D

I dont like taking responsibility. And i've got to concentrate hard to score. GRR.

Oh right, Im happy to say that im still in the same class with the same classmates :D
Marvin Chong HAD to go. D: i'll miss him lah for sure, even though im not that close with him.

BIG SIGH.

One more thing, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE. Better late then never :)
I HAVE SO MANY WISHES! AHH. how? heh.

lets not be greedy.
but then, who isnt?

nevermind.

HAPPY 2008 YO !

2007-12-31T22:39:00.000-08:00

my 150th post. what should i blog about?

just so you know, i spent my holidays well.SO THERE.hehe. :)

TVXQ
MY XIAH JUNSU.

Jaejoong and Junsu :)

sorry,cant help it. :P

2007-11-27T03:49:00.000-08:00

tonight .

Dong Bang Shin Ki's concert. what more can i say?

hyper-ed. screamed and screamed until i coudnt breathe.although i was practically trying to get myself more comfortable cause the seats were made of ROCKS and STONES and CEMENTS. hahaha.

okay. enough.

the pushing and shouting and i REALLY coudnt breathe and was trying hard to breathe was when we were making our way into the stadium through a FUCKING small door. and moreover, no one seems to be willing to line up and nobody was being nice. but i did make my way through the crowd( at last) and i found myself running later on. God knows why.

we got ourselves a greeat view. Just me and Mei Yen, along with a few other friends that we met and talked to while we were lining up.they knew everything about the boys, only me. ahah.

Me: eh, which is Xiah and which is Micky? are they both the same person?
Mei Yen : OMG, WAN FEN. I cant believe you.
(laughs)

we made a long way through to get to Stadium Merdeka.
Subang Parade, Subang KTM,then we got messed up with the tickets and soon finally made our way through the crowds in Kuala Lumpur,reached KL Central,bought tickets and rushed down the LRT monorail, reaching our destination and found people wearing RED everywhere i turn.

Mei Yen and I bought FANS . aha. their unofficial DBSK goodies. but gahh.. i dont care. I got my JaeJoong. heh.the glowing sticks.. was a pain.

i wasted RM20 for 3 glowing sticks that dont really function well. haha. funny thing was, i was waving my glowing stick so hard, it fell off.yes. i dont know, i think it FLEW OFF.Luckily it didnt hit anyone. haha. I hope.

the songs were great despite how uncomfortable i was. the performance and the boys were awesome.
I really got myself into the songs and sang along to ONE, TIMELESS and RISING SUN,O and HUG.

i ddint know the other songs.. laugh at me. lol

Timeless was great. Jang Ri In wasnt that good. but Xiah was great. BEST SONG EVER ! hah.
then.. JaeJoong sang his solo song.. i expected him to sing INSA. but he sang CRYING instead. and well.. i almost cried, needless to say. One of the most touching songs i heard. i just listened to him singing without a word.

everyone was actually singing along to ONE and RISING SUN and of course, O. the dances and all were BURNING HOT. especially U-know and Xiah.Those two really know how to rock the stage, trust me.

Micky was the cute one and his english is good. unlike the others :P
HERO(jaejoong), obviously.. was the one i had my eyes on from the beggining till the end. and fuck. I still can believe i saw them LIVE! heh.

how cool is that?

i coudnt be bothered to record down their performance or snap photos since i was busy screaming my head off. haha. but yeah. i'll put up some of the videos that my friends took down.

Mei Kuan,Sharon and Wei Ling are lucky people. they got really close to them. sigh. nevermind. i'll buy the higher-priced tickets next time.

practically enjoyed myself the whole day. and it was my first time sitting the LRT/monorail you know. hehe.

Sorry to hear U-Know injured his back . get well soon, handsome :)

head over heels for jaejoong,
lilbrat.
[pictures and videos will be up later]

2007-11-14T04:46:00.001-08:00

[ EDIT] pretty leh? :P

Okay, this might sound stupid. But then, i still want to wish my sayang here..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KONG EI-LYNN! :D Love you <3

her Justin and her.
[YOSH.DAH EDIT. :D]
sweet,much?

i was holding onto my hair :)

6K's gathering. Samuel Kwok. and behind there..is Pn Grace Ong. heck.

Ee Teng's hair is long. hahah!

HECK . What is wrong with that photographer's hands.

BFFF ! heh

Kat Ying Ying's house. I call it ZE JAPANESE ROOM :D

I once worked here before- DIVA,London.

my sister thought she was my boyfriend :P

hm. Jin Ying's eyes. JU ON SIAL.

eh, macam terpaksa la itu Cikgu Rozi. hahah

bladdy cute boxes.

took this on MY last day of school.Thanks to Zhao Hui. :) we managed to capture ONE picture before my camera died out because i forgot to charge the batteries. damn.

i think this is my first picture with Melissa :) Just me and that sayang. hehe.

Melissa's little brother CHUBBY SIAL.

Ying Ying's piano.

ATTENTION: I GOT A VIDEO OF YING YING PLAYING THE PIANO.AND ITS BLARDDY CUTE.

2007-11-14T04:46:00.000-08:00

you know im working at LENCE LONDON, at pyramid right? so? GO VISIT ME LAH.

yish. so lonely you know. hehe.and im not good at making friends, especially with the chinese staffs there. gee. whats wrong with me.

anyway, today, was.. kononnya Ei-Lynn's birthday celebration with FOUR friends. wtf. hahah.
everybody didnt turned up. but still, the celebration went on. hahah. :D

Natalie finally did something to her hair, and highlighted it :) she looked gooodd in it, obviously. Im seriously getting sick of her old hairstyle.

pfft. and two ponytails :D i havent done that for a long long time and it made me look young, again. lol. and look at natalie's expression in the second photo.

Ei-Lynn tried on many outfits, with Justin as the photographer and a bad one too.the dresses look terribly adorable on her and she mocked us to buy tops from SENSE as her birthday present since we havent even got her one.. till now. haha.

and yah, spending my money having Baskin Robbins and the Mocha Frappucino. sigh. my hard earned money. pfft.

i know what your thinking in the first picture. MY HAIR :D
it was a nice day. and tomorow, i'll be back to work again.
do you know how boring it is? to be actually standing there the whole day handing out flyers and it isnt like there were loads of customers passing by on weekdays.

and some bitchy passerbys just ignored me completely when i put on my widest smile and hand it over to them.

fucking fuckers. i feel so humiliated. im not used to this im telling you.

and working, is NOT FUN. so please dont joke about going to work, cause its not easy.Especially when your alone. No one to lean towards to when your feeling down.I quit working at Diva,London's because i simply could not get along with a malay bitch there that commands me around and SHES RACIST. fuck her.

so, with the help of my babe, Mei Yen, i managed to get in to LENCE, thinking it will be much better than being in Diva.

i was wrong. Turned out, the malay staffs there were much more friendlier than the chinese staffs.
theres this girl, well, i'll be good enough to not reveal her name here. She ditched me after the first day, and i thought she was kind enough to actually come up to me on my first day of work.

FRIENDS, kononnya. and shes studying in SMK Subang Utama now. Some of you might know who she is..

and Candy. WTF. CANDY? your not fucking sweet at all okay. dont try to play with me like you played Mei Yen.Im not easy to deal with.and dont speak to me with that silly high-pitched voice of yours,fucker.

and Jeffrey, im sorry for having to mention you here even though your a designer. hah. go give yourself a scrub and brush your fucking teeth alright.

I so do not like men like you. so dont fucking give me that miang smile.

( cools ) life's like that huh? nevermind, i'll bear with it.
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tomorow's my babe's 16th birthday !!

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TAN MEI YEN! BLESS YOU :D

i love you. your always the only one that really cheers me up when im not feeling right.
and be happy with your new handphone alright? :P and im sure we'll have fun at DBSK's concert thats only ONE WEEK AWAY :D

scream with me, babe.

have a sweet and sexy birthday kay? love you banyak banyak.

thank you, for everything you've done :)

p.s do you know how much i envy you for being tall? Be proud of yourself :) WALK TALL AND STAY TALL. dont ever hunchback. heh. Trust me.you'll look good.

<33

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so unhappy working now. sigh. what a life.

2007-10-27T08:46:00.000-07:00

Photoblogging :)

kok weng : " eh, why you laugh like you never laugh before one?"

a picture worth a thousand words

devils *horny look*

it was Justin Chow's birthday that day. Happy Belated Birthday, Justin:)

again, i love them all.

heh

p.s i didnt think i would actually fall for this OH-MEE-GOD-SO-DAMN-ADORABLE skin.

2007-10-10T08:24:00.002-07:00

Thats Paul Digrovanni, the lead guitarist from BOYSLIKEGIRLS.Definately the hottest hunk of the year.He beats Pete Wentz!lol, for me :)

[typed on 9th October 2007]
Martin Johnson has a girlfriend. PFFT.

her name's hanna beth. Some of you might heard of her before and shes very close with the paramore's lead singer. Sorry, dont know whats her name.anyway, i think their so cute together.heh.

I'd booked tickets for the Dong Bang Shin Ki's concert on 24th of November. and thats like. a long way to go okay.i cant wait ! But if it was Se7en's concert ,i'll go for the VVIP seats. haha. Beat that.But Seven's not a good number you know, it's something like a demon or something.Thats what i heard.

by the way, if your curious.Im still onto animes,dramas,movies and so.I cant get enough of them. and i recently just found out that Fushigi Yuugi has an OVA ! WTF.Im the only one that dont knows that, i think. I was talking to pei yee the another day..

Me: Eh, you know that Fushigi Yuugi has an OVA?
Peiyee: Yeah. why?
Me:im crunchyroll-ing it now. haha. You watch already?
Peiyee:Yeah ( cool manner)
Me: ( SHOCKED) OMG. You didnt tell me theres an OVA!!
Peiyee:(cool still) i did. I told you long ago.I asked you if you've watched it or not.And you nod your head and said" ya ya"
Me: YA MEH? i must have heard wrongly.

ahah. thats funny. and i like funny conversations :) it doesnt nessesarily be good.

oh. i also realised that i NEVER was photogenic D:
I take ten photos, and only one or two is welll..preety. lol. it makes life difficult.People often say i look different in pictures and they think im some standard six girl withc glasses.oh my god.Open up your eyes.DO I LOOK LIKE ONE? pfft.i want to look my age.

back to it, so officially.I declare that im not photogenic.:) thats bad. What if i became a celebrity when i grow up?then i have to face the cameras and tv's and i dont look pretty at all..

HAHA. Celebrity,kononnya.

and fuck, i think im starting to love Justin Timbalake :D His yummy.

love,
lilbrat.

p.s tomorow's the launching of the rocket day !! hahha. and Ivy's gonna be so happy. Know why? Make a guess :)