[ typed before BM paper 2]
so here i am, in the middle of studying for the Bahasa Malaysia paper tomorow.

why am i here, you ask? its because this something caught up all of a sudden, and i decided that i must blog bout it.

i remembered ,there was once,not too long ago, we were near some lake or pond or whatever you call it. Its deep, mind you.So, my mum was walking along it, but then she loses her grip. and then. i go

' EH MEE, be careful lah.' and my heart skipped a beat. i was so afraid that she would fall. (she didnt of course) Yeah, she's not a good swimmer ya know. Shes afraid of the pool as she ,once,almost drowned in a pool when she was young. Its nothing to be afraid of actually,but sometimes,you just cant overcome your own fears.

so, the question is. what story am i actually wanting to tell? Isit bout my mum and her fear for swimming? no.

i often ponder to myself, why is it that when my mum or my dad or my sister gets into danger, I feel so afraid? Was i afraid of losing them? Or was it just because their my family? i dont know.

its haunting, if you see your family members drowning in the pool, or a car comes and almost bangs into them. ( CHOY CHOY CHOY)

I know myself, i'll definately rush up to them. Push them away from the car, jump straight into the pool to save them and probrably getting myself injured or hurt in the end. But then, when i come to think of it. i ask myself ..

will i do the same thing when it comes to a friend?or a stranger? or a nobody?
the answer . maybe yes,maybe no. Yes to a friend, No to a stranger.

If i could save them. i will . but then. i think i wont.

Its a first instinct thing. I would most probrably jump into the pool without second thoughts and without realising that i just jumped when it comes to my family. But for friends? or a stranger? Im sorry, i dont think my instinct would tell me to do that. I know im bad.

so, maybe you say... what about my boyfriend? I claim to love him, but do I?

Love is about sacrificing, even your life.
well. this, i dont know. and we'll have to find out :D (haha, no la)

so, How do you save a life then? By donating organs? yesh. i will donate my organs if i have to(lol) . Okay, so i will. haha. but putting my own life at risk to save a stranger? i doubt so.

what im trying to tell you is that. family comes first :) and its true. I'd do anything for them, simply anything.

kay, end of my story telling. heh. i typed all this out without backspacing :D thats good. lol.

i'll continue with my studying, till then :)
love,
lilbrat

p.s dont hate me :D

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